a change.

i've been thinking quite a lot lately. somehow i think i need to have a change of my life, my attitude, my thinking, my behaviour and my ? idk. i know what im wrong at but i just dont want to admit. i ask myself is that true that im wrong or trying to push the blames all over to someone else. i know its not good. somehow i felt ive been so left out with GOD. when im with HIM everything makes me so CARE LESS ! :/ but know everything seems so troubling. i need to deal everything that is bothering me. GOSH ! for godness sake ! would I change that damn attitude. stop being so _________ !? idk what word to describe. so hahah. i know it myself then thats better. but this post is to remind me about A CHANGE NEED TO BE MAKE ! and i think being away from you will make me feel better. seriously, ive been thinking it does. but idk yet never try, never know. overall , I JUST CAN'T ACCEPT THE FACT !! urghhh.

p/s : pleaseeee be more realistic pwueeeseeee ! wake up !

obstacle,making decision.

im clueless and lost in the middle way of my road.

doesnt know which way to turn to.

there's a passenger right beside me wanted me to turn left.

when i wasnt really sure that is it right to turn left.

or just keep to the right where i wanted from the first place.

so it took me a while to think and ask a passerby whether he knew the way.

he told me the direction and if i were to choose that road i have pass through this and that.

there will be tree trunk,big rocks,wild animals along the road.

i have to face all this obstacle in order to complete my journey.

well , which road of life doesnt ?

now all it requires me to do is press on the gear and start moving.

turn right and let the time show that im right about my turning.

after all its my journey.

i had two tickets in my hand. given by the same person.

given to choose my destination.

two tickets but two different destination.

im only get to choose one.

*somehow i think college is headache, when you have to choose your courses ,

and you're not really sure what you're up to.

getting things done.

went to jetty to take a ferry to crossover to butterworth to take a bus.

went there just on time to catch a bus which will be leaving.

then reach ipoh and went for dinner.

headed to burger king to try out.

the burger was so NICE ! (:

then went to jj to find chris. meet her at the working place.

MNG ! sales. but eventually i wanted to purchased.

dad stop me from buying.

he said that i had too many that i barely wear them all.

the next morning woke up at 7. get ready.

then start journey to KL. was kinda last minute decision.

so i reach the around 10++

found the place and settle down a while.

meet up my bee. then he brought us to college.

registeration and stuff.

done then when around searching for place to stay.

FOUND one it was soo friggin dirty. EWwww.

then went around the next lane.

FOUND and it was sooo much better and clean.

so i took that room. ;)

after everything settle. headed to mid valley.

dad missses subway's bread a lot.

and we took taxi there.

taxi fare in KL was sooo much cheaper than PENANG !

PENANG's taxi SERIOUSLY SUCKS ! HATE IT.

gonna be my last time taking taxi in penang.

this morning took plusliner back to penang.

just as i get down from the bus and i get to catch another bus.

which stop by at KOMTAR and i took off from there.

bought MCD as breakfast and I got my another glass. purple in colour (:
took taxi back because I brought along my big luggage trolley bag.

and it rains. i had no choice but to take a cab.

and it cost me RM10 ! so WTH !!!!! 10. it was sooo short distant.

really damn it. damn money sucker.

my college too. MONEEYY SUCKER !

FYI; my college want us to resit our MPW sejarah and ask us to pay RM100 !

for the damn subject. IM SOOOOO RELUCTANT to pay !!

had haagen dazs ! ((: with daddy and bee.

threat for father's day.

THANKS DAD ! YOU'RE THE GREATEST DAD EVER !
WORLD BEST DAD !! (((:

back to daddy .

came back from college 10++.
plan to go back because im homesick /:
last night pack my things. some need to bring back to Ipoh.
left some useful thing with me here at Penang.
taking bus back in the evening. havent bought ma ticket yet.
hope there's bus ticket.
miss my daddy alot. thinking of my finals makes me stress.
but thinking of his sacrificies he made i shall make mine too.
so i decided to go back and visit him.
and celebrate father's day with him.
DADDY I LOVE YOU (((:
lots of things ive to move here and there.
haha. penang and kl is located in between ipoh.
nothing much. just telling. XO
owh ya. i bought myself new pairs of jeans.
loves it load. (:

sign board.

watched toy story 3. shopping. failed to window shop.

i should really ask myself as i saw this sign board.
Do you spend money or save during sales ?
and does football player work or play?

SWISS ROLL SUCCESS !

im very happy today that i have successfully did my swiss roll for my practical exam.
i didnt realise it was that good until evalution time.
the day before i was sooooo stress out.
its always like this. the day before exam i'll start panic-ing.
but at least i know i did a great job today.
i told my bee he was very proud of me.
didnt know that he will be proud of me.. HEEE XD
he made me proud of myself. (:
chef ask me did i ever made my own at home i say i didnt.
then later the chef taste my swiss roll he said it was nice and take another bite.
he told me that my swiss roll was too big.
he say we doesnt serve like pasar malam.
so next time i should make it smaller.
he say i can improve. well, lesson learnt.
i shall improve myself. learn from the mistake.
after personal evalution.
then all of us went back into the kitchen to clean and take away the left over.
i find my swiss roll missing. so i ask my pastry chef.
she told me the other chef say it was nice and he took it. HAHAH.
then my senior sem4 was in the kitchen. she was kinda curious.
she ask me whether can she try my swiss roll.
so i offered her. and she's say its nice. better than them.
even they dont know how to make. O.o !
before serving to all of them i gave one piece to my friend.
he said it was even better than my chef. XD LOL.

♥ CLOSET ♥

my roomies and I decided to hit Queensbay together

because one of my roomie wants to meet her secondary classmates there.

so total all in 6 of us went together by bus.

we was so excited about it.

especially my best shopping kaki ! :D

i had one.. she was really my eye opener..

when i saw her buying clothes i really salute her.

GOSHHH. i love buying clothing like soooo much.

sometimes i ask myself when can i change myself into one of those girls.

not those rich and buy whatever they want but those who doesnt buy much.

i read a magazine one day. the issue how to shop.

it tells me to shop like a man ! saves alot ! amazed by those men (:

mens doesnt buy unless they need.

they are not easily deceived by the BIG WORD SALES !

and i do wanna owned my own boutique.

it was one of my dream to owned lotsa lotsa clothing (:

I WANT A BIG CLOSET of my own ! like the movie in princess diaries.

this is totally for my kid (:

p/s: actually the above images doesn't really shows the real closet i adore or dream*

T_T !!

i cried early in this hour in this beautiful Sunday morning. ;'((((
i was checking out facebook and i came across 'someone's blog'
so i read what 'someone' wrote.
eventually while i was reading, my tears flow like river water from my eyes !
and i can tell im crying ! I FEEL SO EMO and SAD !
i couldnt share it with anyone else but myself.
and im crying right now !! the more i have to write it out.
the more pain i feel ! this blog is about my BFF !
i dont care even if my eye is swollen or what.
this is what i can do for you my dear friend.
she might not know but i terribly felt so sad for her !
she's my best friend forever. and something bad had happen to her recently.
HAAIH !!!! she's a very nice friend of mine and a very good friend of mine !
no matter what she'll show me her cheerful side of hers towards her physical appearance.
but inner deep down inside i know she's so friggin down.
and yet she know how to handle things.
im really amazed with her.
sometimes i dont understand her why does she do this why does she do that?
because she didnt tell me what happen to her.
but she did share with me once in a while.
i cried like shit right now.
bearing her pain all alone. nobody understand her.
IM SO FREAKING UPSET FOR HER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God,please have mercy and lots of love for my dear little best friend!
I love her as much as i love myself ! T_T
i no longer want to write.
the more words i try to express out the more tears it takes.
last but not least, I want to tell her this eventhough i know she never get to read this post.
but i want her to know that i love her as much as myself.
treat her like my sister. but i want you to know im always there for you.
im ready to help to hear from you.
let me know !
end with lots of love and not forgetting tears ~ T_T!!!!!!!!!

MPW & Marmaduke

watched Marmaduke at GSC,Gurney.

with ma friends. so cute the doggies. WHEEE ((:

im catching up alot of movie these days.

i sat for my MPW. stupid history exam this afternoon.

gahhh. i went out the hall so late.
but actually wasnt time yet but most of them went out the hall early.

that makes me wanna leave as well.

but i havent finish and i dont feel like letting my marks fly away.

haihhh. i know i wont be scoring A but at least let me pass.

i dont wanna retake the stupid paper ever again !

seriously so sick of HISTORY mannn. /;

i've cut my hair like again ! :/ '

*i love my current layout friggin much. overall fav.

btw,world cup starts today (:

the karate kid

watched The Karate Kid (:
awesome ! even Jaden Smith had six packs !
the movie was great. and kinda hilarous and sad :(
ive skipped my butchery for the movie.
scolded by boyf :/
he's mad at me right now. sad !

jaden smith and jackie chan. looking old already,jackie :/

you know what?

I've got the best parent I ever had !

swiss roll.

went for pastry class . got my question for my final practical exam for pastry.
and guess what ? I got SWISS ROLL ((( ;

ask around my friends . easy ?.. EASY !

well, all i have to hope is everything have to be done perfectly. (:
hmm, yesterday while i was having my practical class i didnt really pay attention though.

blame who? BLAME MYSELF !

sometimes, the brain just cant stop thinking and start putting blames on others.
i guess it just happen naturally. bad !

hope my swiss roll will taste good. and i have to garnish it nicely.

i will do simple and nice.

i'll be taking my exam on the 16th of June. 8am-1pm.

i hope i can make it like this. HAHA but its impossible for the moment.

YOU !?

dont know how to tell you in person but i hope YOU read this or maybe not.

to be frank I think since so many incident had happen around YOU

there are many things YOU learn from the lesson taught through your pathway in your life.

YOU had heard and seen things that not everyone had gone through.

some things YOU should learn from them and some not.

but as your friend/BFF i just couldnt bear to see YOU turning into someone whom YOU should not be.

in this life,there are tons of things that YOU wanna tried out.

I can see that.. but at least try something harmless to YOU.

there are lots of footsteps on the pathway,but its in your heart and soul to choose which one YOU wanna follow.

some people they sweet talk YOU just to get what they want.

since YOU have been such good friend to me, I dont want to see such bad thing that will happen to YOU.

YOU console people around YOU,giving good advice but in return are YOU practice the good advice like YOU told them?

p/s : suddenly feel like posting something like this. HAHA.weird though.

so yeaahh my dear friend I want the best for YOU.

seems harsh sometimes but deeply concern bout YOU.

LOVESS. xOxO

make my blog alive.

hah, im back for once again.. left my blog drop dead. :D

well, hows life huh? college life.

nothing seems easier anyway.

assignment every week.

doesnt seems the worst part of it yet.

final practical and theory exams are coming soon.

alot to practice and study.. /: sobss..

im not gonna abadone my blog i guess.
toodles *

*currently in Penang ! is a great city ! stay tune !