one day but not today.

one day,
i'll get rid of you,
one day,
i'll stop loving you,
one day,
i'll stop missing you,
one day,
i'll will not think about you,
one day,
i'll not talk about you,
one day,
i'll love someone but not you,
one day,
i'll stop falling for you,
one day,
i'll stop believing in you,
one day,
i'll stop trusting you,
one day,
i'll not long for you,
one day,
i'll realize what a fool i have been,
but just not today.

if you think im dumb, you are but not me.
you didn't know how smart i was
and you'll never know.

don't fool me, you're just fooling yourself.

don't give up something easily,
you'll find how hard is it to grab hold of something,
you'll start appreciating,
losing it, regret it

you'll never know what is like until they're gone.

fight so hard to hold on,
now try so hard to forget.

what are words if you really don't mean them,
but they are only for good times?

this is the time where i'll..

since this is suppose to be a short but not very short post,
so i decided to share it here, rather than twitter because twitter can't fit
what im about to say/list.....

this is the time where i'll make most of the mistakes,
this is the time where i'll fall in love with someone,
this is the time where i'll make stupid/silly mistakes,
this is the time where i'll would want to be like in the movies,
this is the time where i'll dream so high/beyond,
this is the time where i'll imagine how life could be,
this is the time where i'll do something i'll never do for the rest of my life,
this is the time where i'll make promises and break them,
this is the time where i'll shave my hair/cuts all sort of hairstyle,
this is the time where i'll make decision and regret it later,
this is the time where i'll cry for a movie,
this is the time where i'll eat like there's no tomorrow,
this is the time where i'll go for exercise once in a while,
this is the time where i'll paint my nails whenever im allowed to,
this is the time where i'll set my own rules, break them
this is the time where i'll spend money on unnecessary stuff,
this is the time where i'll spend most of the time on the net,
this is the time where i'll do what i want and when i want to,
this is the time where i'll rebel and thinking im always right,
this is the time where i'll spend than to save,
this is the time where i'll facebook,twitter,tumblr,blog,etc
this is the time where i'll have wish list but not able to fulfill it,
this is the time where i'll have thoughts of marrying some guy,
this is the time where i'll think i have it all/nothing at all
this is the time where i'll drive, recklessly,
this is the time where i'll never know why,
this is the time where i'll envy someone else,
this is the time where i'll forgive and forget,
this is the time where i'll complains and complains,
this is the time where i'll love every music that sings my feelings,
this is the time where i'll got no sense of direction,
this is the time where i'll fear of rejection,
this is the time where i'll share a secret to a close friend,
this is the time where i'll find a companion, a friend, someone,
this is the time where i'll see true colors,
this is the time where i'll be thinking im worthless,
this is the time where i'll be the happiest girl on earth,
this is the time where i'll be thankful for what i have,
this is the time where i'll be deceived, cheated, lied to,
this is the time where i'll be telling jokes, make someone laugh
this is the time where i'll stay up late, very late,
this is the time where i'll feel lucky to have you,
this is the time where i'll still hand write than type it out,

to be continued..
well, lets not continue HAAHAA ! so yeah, this is pretty what i have to say.
from all this I would like to conclude that, if i have not gone through what i've not,
i don't learn, i don't grow, i don't know, i don't think, many more i don't,
always remember that everything happen for a reason,
not for the best or the worst, but it is always for good.
when you don't go through some things in life, you won't learn,
either it's in a hard way or the other way round.
most of the time we look on the negative side and that's when we start to be negative.

You and I

something you want to forget. takes times. i dont want to mention anything emo because there's nothing to be emo about. i finally, wake up from a big slap from the reality. LOL! oh yeah, a quite hard one ! more to come. ppl say i'll come back stronger than i was. so yeah ! im back as strong as i was before and perharps a lil more stronger in faith and wisdom. =) never point finger and blame others &&& yet don't put all the blame on yourself. Just remember that, God has purpose for us. He's decision for us was never wrong ! He might have better plans for us ahead ! From all the misery we are going through was just bumps that we have to go through just to see a better plan ahead and appreciate what we are having ! =) well, if you dont love yourself, no one else will. some ppl are just meant to be your passerby in your life. open your eyes wide enough and pray for God's wisdom upon you, show you the right person AKA their true colours ! some people disappoint us so much that they turn out the person we did not expect them to be. some people too good to be true in the beginning but eventually you will see their true colours.

anyway love,

loving you was the choice i made. regretting will not bring us anywhere. for one moment I thought you were the "one" but I was wrong and fully blinded by the word "love". thanks for the time we spend together. "I may regret the way ended, but I will never regret what we had ". If our love was true, the sparks only happens in between the both of us. LOVE happens BOTH way ONLY ! when it comes to a relationship, its all about trust,commitment,honesty,forgive,most of all Love ! =)

dear love, wish you all the best.

strangers, again

i watched this once, before all this happen to me.

well, this video describe it all. i've been through all the stages !

HOLLA! wonderful Saturday morning !

buried me love.

back to blogging after a sudden urge to blog.

officially ended my relationship which almost lasted for 2years.

it have been my 2 good and bad years with him.

in a relationship who doesn't go through this ?

im feeling grateful to those who have been with me through the thick and thin.

im really thankful that God brought them into my life.

some lesson are learn through pain ! YEAH, just like i did.

well, don't dwell in your past and move forward.

don't regret for what you did not did nor it wasn't good enough

but try doing it better the next time !

therefore, it should not be a reason or excuses for you to repeat the same mistakes!

CIAO !

buried my love deep down. RIP !